i told you not to say anything . but , even though you didnt , it was a gentle reminder . well < not really . it was a major reality check . yes , i have been avoiding it . pretending that everything is okay. HAHAHAHAHA..also , pretending that i know what is going on . pretending that , what is going on , really is going on . but its not . im living in a world of my own . making up stories in my head . of how things should go , according to my own personal wishes . like , when she says something , or acts in a certain way , i'd interpret it to suit what i want it to be .. running away from what they would call , facts , truth , reality . once the interpretation gets stuck in my head , my imagination just doesnt stop . i think it did today . bummer . but after certain incidents i've been denying myself of how much she really means to me . so that , maybe , i won't turn out to be a life ruiner after all . HAHAHAHAHAHA .. what's wrong with me .
