i know that YOU know , that i'd give up pretty much ANYTHING for YOU. i sacrificed alot. for you . it's all the small things but it adds up to alot. so much , its just too much , come to think of it . they say you're no good for me. simply because of the fact that , when it comes to you , i have no back bone. i give in , even after supposedly being so fucking angry with everything you've done to me. you'd go on and on , about the same thing.... and after your fairy tale is over , after you have no one else to go to ... you come back to me.. after ignoring me for what seemed like a century .. i told myself that i'd be strong and tell you off.. but what the hell happened. nothing . i pretended nothing happened. no more talk about what happened. what everyone says is right i guess.. im already unhappy as it is.. what more if i were to rewind , and press play ? funny , how im unhappy because of the way things are. and , how i'd be even more unhappy if i got my fairytale ending. knowing you , i'd be depressed.
oh screw it . i didnt even have to do anything . i just let things be the way they are. and it's all repeating itself , if you didnt already know.. still dont know that im talking about you ? let me tell you this.( if it blows up our friendship , dont think i dont care. because i really really do .so let everyone else kill me)why did you lead me to believe that we had something special ? why did you say what you said , why did you do what you did ? and why didnt you think before doing what you did ? did you know how hurt i was ? how confused i was after things started going out of hand?? did you know that what i found out over the past few months grossed the hell out of me ? i dont know why i even bother know. i dont know why its only now that im starting to question what actually happened.
im not actually making sense. i dont know what's going on .. i know you too well i guess. if i told you youd probably brush it aside , giving me your piece of the puzzle that doesnt actually fit . it's just not the same anymore. i know you so well , but i can no longer call you a close friend. because , it would be nothing but an ugly lie . do you know that they tell me to ditch you , simply because of the way you treat me ? do you know how many people blew up because of that stupid phrase ? do you know what i lost ? i said that phrase because it meant something . but now , that phrase , is glaring back at me. telling me what an idiot i am . thank you very much . byebye
