i dont feel like , going to school tml . i feel like , staying home to study !!!! we'll see we'll see.. but damn it !!! i forgot to pass pam my catholic welfare tickets . shucks .. mabe i should just drag my ass to school after all ....things totally came out wrong today .. i told ms koh that my maid was helping me sell my tickets.... that was wrong.. hahahhaha !!
my life seems so artificial.. like its too , colourful ... for my own good.. i need to rewind , pause , delete and play .. !#$%$ .. i guess study-overdose takes away my brains .. i need my sanity back .. i miss it.. my motivation to actually go to a JC is also , sitting on the fence .. like , a part of me wants to go , because of this stupid reason. but , at the same time , i wouldnt wanna go .... simply because , my mom doesnt want me to , and , i dont think i can survive in a JC , and , because , there is something else... and of course , hannah the great aint making sense again ....i should really stop listening to people who have absolutely no wisdom ...cause listening to people who actually know what they are talking about would benefit me ? like , yeah , obviously ... im too easily influenced.. i have alot of water , no wood .. joy luck club . haha .. again and again , im not making sense... it's depressing knowing that im living a lie you see .. i need her back in my life .. and that's my main point
