firstly , meet the royal highness ,
urghhh !!! i know , it is very annoying , to complain .. i too get annoyed with myself .. but , you gotta feel sorry for me cause i have such a fucked up mother.. one who tell my friends "is hannah with you ?! why dont you adopt her ?? " , one who goes behind my back and fucking asks my friends , "is hannah in a relationship with melissa ??" , one who accuses me of flirting around whenever i come home past 6 fucking pm ... one who starts hating my friends once i start getting closer to them.... to the point where , i have to secretly go out with them because telling her the trith just gets me into more deep shit . she'll throw me comments like , " going out to flirt ??? " , "gigs are for drug addicts " and , " WHY DONT YOU ASK THEM TO ADOPT YOU ? " ... what the fuck .... i know , i may regret saying this but , i fucking hate you mom . i dont see why i still put up with her . sometimes i'd cry , and my dad would come to tell me its okay . and sometimes , he is the one apologising for her .... telling me , its okay ... that THEY wont tell me things like that anymore .... but everytime he says that , ill just get more of it .. i hate it when my mom puts words in my mouth , i hate it when she accuses me of drugs , sex , and flirting around ... i hate it when she lies to me to get what she wants .... like the time she told me that vanessa told her about something , when vanessa absolutely did not ... i even got fucking pissed at vanessa , FOR NOTHING . i hate it when she uses her friends ... like telling me her friends fucking saw me with a bloody guy , when she says her friends call me fat , when she says her friends tell her im a bad influence to their children ... and the stupidest thing was the time she told me her friends called me ugly just cause i had a break out .... now , i dont know what to believe ... and she's my mother for heaven's sake ... little by little , she gets on my nerves .. but now when i think of it .... its like she's fucking hell ruining my life .. when she tells me stuff like " why are you happier with your friends and not with your family ??? why dont you just go and live with them ?! " , sometimes i do feel like going off to live with them ... but , i cant . i just cant . oh i cant wait to leave ... i had a little chat with my grandma .. we talked about , my dad , and `them ... i found out some stuff ... and even my grandma says that my mom's being so fucking unreasonable ... but of course , that's not word for word . lol . okay , enough about my life problems ...... i revealed far too much .... but i feel so much better now . hahahha !
went to send i shan off today . ohhh boy i miss her ! alot of people came to the airport to send her off .. and , cheryl , gaoya , felicia , cherie , mel , ngern kia , doren , meita and i reached the airport realll early .. so we went to get a bite to eat .. at bk ..the service was super duper slow .. but it looked like the guy was new and he was afraid to give us the wrong order .. i think he was even afraid to make us the least bit unhappy cause , he even flattened out the chilli packet before giving it to us ... that's how slow he was . then i shan came and so did more people .. we spased around ..and took lots of spastic pictures . that was so lame. and then we left for outram.it was , not a nice experience.. nothing to do with the school .. its us .. lol .. so yeah , dont get offended , anyone from OSS. lazy to blog more... later later ..
