I like the way
your cheeks become lowered
deeper and deeper
into your grave face
and bones protrude like tombstones
above a ghastly field of grey.
i heard that now even heidi klum's supposedly too fat to make it as a model . like , yes yes , what in the world ? is skinny supposed to be beautiful ? i dont speak cause im not a supermodel with my BMI at a mere 14.1 .... like hello ? ummmm , since when is skinny pretty ? ANYWAY , i think singapore's modelling industry is pretty fuckd up haha .. firstly , they have "fat" models ... secondly , this is singapore , an asian country , but do take a look around , how often do you come across ads featuring asian models . even if you do see them pretty often , im sure you'd see way way more of ads with caucasian models . aint that screwed ? i was talkin to a friend once and he told me asian models just make the ad look tacky ... HAHA .. not true please ! i personally feel that here , in singapore , the advertisers dont really put that much effort into ads with asian models . just look around . really , hangten vs goldheart :)
im so bored .i cant believe im actually addressing such an issue . whatever .
anyway , i had another one of those dreams last night . when i wanted to move and scream but i was simply paralysed ..IT SUCKED :( i hate the feeling of bein suppressed .
i have two weeks to the Os .. i feel like im no where near prepared for sitting for them . TWO WEEKS !!!!!!!!!!! :(((( to look on the bright side , i have so much to look forward to once the Os are done .
i just realised that SP offers mass com . HAHAHAHAHHAHA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay , another door opened . but that doesnt make anything any easier . pray for me PLEASE
