i did improve , so much .
from 27 all the way down to 14 .
down 13 fucking points .
and believe it or not ,
i didnt get a little congrats ,
or whatsoever from my fucking parents .
its sounds fucking self-centered , i know.
actually i dont even know what the fucking problem is
they just , dont wanna support me anymore
why ?
they say cause i dont deserve it ,
cause im like this giant disgrace and disappointment
direct quote from my mom : "you are so disappointing.."
honestly , i have no idea as to why she said that .
all i did was just to tell her that i didnt wanna check my sister's homework
and suddenly im a disppointment to the family
of course there's more to it .
like , the fact that im pissed off whenever i talk to her
but its true .
i mean , all she ever says to me is ,
"your so disappointing" and , "i regret having a retarded daughter like you"
i give up trying to talk about it cause everytime i do ,
its always my fault ,
im the one tearing the family apart cause i am not happy whenever she nags or finds fault in whatever i do .
what the fuck man
they dont even bother to listen to what i have to say
and so now im even thinking of wasting a year ,
not going to poly and working ,
for a year .
to last me through my poly education
hip hip hooray
